Although I have been creating multiple pieces recently…it has been feeling like work more than fun. I enjoy the challenges and like how I’m able to design them the way i want in terms of testing different strengths when teaching these routines to dancers.
But what I’ve noticed is that I’m not as happy as I could be and I’m not creating as well as I can if I’m not making anything that’s personal to me.
The pieces I’ve come up with lately are test pieces and workshop pieces. A lot of the time I get so caught up in experimenting and improving the dynamics in my choreo that I never make time to just listen to a song that I really enjoy and just move to it.
It’s a good thing that I keep pushing forward and do everything it takes to improve my musicality but sometimes you really do need to just relax and have fun with it.
I think this is why I never want to put up any of my pieces because I feel that although the dynamics are pretty solid and my musicality shows pretty well, I just don’t feel like its good enough unless I really connected with the song.
The need to progress and be better than I was yesterday…never knew it had this kind of backfire.
Dance is fun. I need to breathe more.